i'm slightly bored out of my mind at this very moment. i know i'm not the busiest woman on the planet but i'm always up to something... so here i am, chillin in my bed in atlanta, trying to find out what to do...
i been googling halloween costumes- not fun.
responding to everyone's twitter posts...
trying to call everyone and their mama.
asking dawn to just "TALK TO MEEEE"
find all my contacts (since tmobile wiped me clear of all my numbers)
writing emotional letters to people in my life, knowing they'll never read it
... that amongst jamming out to old music i got in this computer.


anyways, is this too provocative to wear to a halloween party?

.... maybe for another girl. i like the outfit but prob only for photoshoots.
i have no idea what the hell i should be. im gonna go as an import model. hahhaha

well i havent taken many pictures... i been waiting for dawn to post up pictures from going out, esp for my girl Alexia Lei who is on the cover of Lowrider! congrats mama!!! so-- dawn, hurry ur ass up and post up those pics..

actually, Alexia Lei was there and Amanda Gift too.... but we 3 girls were having a camera moment during this pic.

I'll steal dawn's camera and try to upload some pics late :)

and YES-- that was me on Eastwick. i havent seen it yet tho

So I'm really stoked about getting a place--- I can't wait to paint the walls hot pink and white. I can't wait to have a dinning area that looks like Alice in Wonderland, or a bed that looks like an old Victorian brothel. (I've bought decor for this new steez too).. But finding a place is easier said than done.. Downtown LA has so many old buildings... of course all renovated. some... not so much. Anyway, I thought I found my new home... ok, so it was hood in the lobby... (I mean, very hood..) but once I was in the unit, I could notice all the upgrades and I appreciated the old "downtown" lifestyle that was downstairs...
***insert-- when I say old downtown lifestyle.. I mean crackheads.
So back to my search on finding a new abode--- I found that place with the straaaaaaange people downstairs.
There were about 3-4 security guards downstairs that I saw and supposedly more in the laundry mat and garage. plus
Parking downstairs was an additional $110. minus
The elevator can only fit up to a full sized bed. minus
Concrete floors and large windows. PLUS PLUS PLUS
Open air so I can see everywhere and everything. PLUSSS
The fact that every week to every other week they removed dead bodies from the facility... uhmmm a BIG FUCKING MINUS

yea, so this pretty cool place happens to be a renovated crackhouse and people are still cracked out there.. They're trying to kick out the old tenants and I guess make it more "cool".. one day I'm sure all the crackheads and lunatics will be long gone from this area.... but the fact is.. no matter how many times you paint a wall or take out carpet... you can't remove death and tormented souls that died there.
so the fact is that tons of people have died in this building from, Godknowswhat--- overdoses, murders and suicides and if anyone knows me AT ALL... they know that I'm scared of ghost. Especially if I'm gonna be alone in this place. I would be sleep deprived, stressed out, scared and lose my damn mind. not a good look.
Thank u to my friend who told me the inside scoop on this building- (I won't say the name of the building or the friend... just cuz..... I dont wanna snitch)

so yeah, still loft hunting... not ghost hunting nor looking for a chic place to get high... hahahahha
and for those of you searching for a place in DTLA, good luck to you. lol

a few pictures... i'll get back on the ball with snapping and posting fotos!

I been hella busy. unfortunately not taking pictures.
when i get a chance, i'll post pics pple sent me :)

I'm hosting a party in Atlanta this Saturday! Hope you guys can come out and support me! 18 and up for all the ladies and fellas 21 and up! Hope to see familiar and new faces!

a little questionaire on facebook. thought it was "neat" and that i should post here too ;)

1. I've come to realize that my chest-size...
makes me look fat in sweaters.

2. I've come to realize that my job(s)...
are more fun than i credit.

3. I've come to realize that when I'm driving...
i should probably let a 5 year old drive instead, cuz im that bad.

4. I've come to realize that I need....
lots and lots and lots of attention (from 1 person)

5. I've come to realize that I have lost...
a lot of friends

6. I've come to realize that I HATE it when...
I don't get my way

7. I've come to realize that if I'm drunk...
I'll regret all the dumb things i did in the morning

8. I've come to realize that money…
really doesnt matter, but it makes life easier

9. I've come to realize that certain people...
will always judge you and you just got to ignore them and move on

10. I've come to realize that I'll always ...
find a way

11. I've come to realize that my sibling(s)…
are so trill

12. I've come to realize that my mom…
is so damn beautiful

13. I've come to realize that my cell phone...
controls me

14. I've come to realize that when I woke up this morning…
that i have to be a responsible mommy and walk my kiddies

15. I've come to realize that before i go to sleep...
it has to be pitch black or im stuck awake.

16. I've come to realize that right now I am thinking...
i wish i was as funny and clever as Dawn

17. I've come to realize that my dad…
has made every man i run into, littles in comparison to him.

18. I've come to realize that when I get on Facebook...
i just add friends and thats it

19. I've come to realize that today...
im gonna be alone.

20. I've come to realize that tonight...
the local cupcake place isnt even open yet but i still got 2 dozen red velvet! hahahahhaha WIN

22. I've come to realize that I really want to...
be independent

23. I've come to realize that the person who is most likely to re-post this is...
i really dont even know

24. I've come to realize that life...
isnt about the destination (we all die) but the journey :)

25. I've come to realize that this past weekend...
that being under the influence isnt a necessity anymore

26. I've realized the best music to listen to when I am upset...
Somewhere over the Rainbow by Israel Kamakawiwo'ole (wooooo saaaaa)

27. I've come to realize that my friends...
are only fair-weathered.

28. I've come to realize that this year...
life changes so fast

29. I've come to realize that my ex...
is a beautiful person. but not everyone is meant to be

30. I've come to realize that maybe I should...
get a real job

31. I've come to realize that I love...
everything

32. I've come to realize that I don't understand...
myself and why I'm such a space cadet

33. I've come to realize that my past...
could be a sitcom

34. I've come to realize that parties...
are what they are.

35. I've come to realize that I'm totally terrified...
of being alone forever

I'm going through a lot of changes, and everything is happening a lot faster than I thought it would. I'm going through an early mid-life crisis. I sat around last night with a lot on my mind. I was thinking about all the things I've done. Most of which I did on impulse. When I was younger, I thought doing everything on impulse was the only way to live life the right way. I'm the type of person to over think things and talk myself out of going through with things, so I always thought "sure--- what would I be doing anyway"--
Here I am now trying to clean up my life. Ok- wait, cleaning it up is not the right way of saying this.... I don't know the right word of what I'm feeling. I want to say--- maybe that I am trying to make sense of myself.
I do have a master plan to all this madness, I really do. But I just sat around thinking very basic things. Like, how do I introduce myself? I almost never claim to "model"--- but then when someone runs across my nude pictures, I'm like, "oh yeah, I did do that... but don't get me wrong, I'm not some kind of whore." --- I find myself having to explain or trying to make up for what people might think of me. So what do I say, "Hi, I'm Justene" ---"what do you do"---- "oh this and that"-- sounds suspicious right. yeah, basic things like that, I'm at a loss for words.
Rambling on...
As I'm going through all these new changes... I wonder if all my "impulsive" decisions give me baggage... I hardly have any good friends... and that scares me.

As if that wasn't enough on my mind....

Today, I visited my wonderful cousin Gaile in the hospital. (I love you)--
Dawn, Gaile and I just sat around and giggled for the most part, and of course I made my way into Gaile's bed because I WILL find a way to make myself comfortable.... I stopped and realized... and said "Do you guys realize we are adults?" Gaile nods... and of course... Dawn goes, "you might be, I'm not" ---- hahahha
We just sat around talking about all the changes we're going through and all the moves we're making... but the whole time, I felt like the old us... 7th graders playing in the garage... or even us in 1st and 2nd grade taking bubble baths together for 3 hours straight... yep.. Me Dawn and Gaile. hahahha
I don't really know where this blog is going.. just rambling about how life has seemed to go by fast..... I know I'm still young... but I'd like to be 17 again.

go to Dawn's blog for updates... i didnt take pictures like normal.
Dawnkirsty.blogspot.com

and yes, i totally wigged out when i saw jessica rabbit. i've never been so scared to say hello to someone before... i can't imagine being so impressed by anyone ever again. she's a tall glass of ... uhmm...BEAUTIFUL woman-ness.


anyway.. if you guys saw me that last day of magic... sorry for my appearance and attitude. first day of the show, i didnt sleep that night-- so i was a little quiet and zoned out. 2nd day, i got sleep, but then decided to go to the after party.... and did a rerun of my first day, but i wreaked of alcohol and looked like a crackhead.



anyways... its getting a little later-- and its saturday night... i should start showering and getting ready to start my night... hope everyone has a fantastic weekend!

so im back from australia and from the magic show in las vegas and u could not believe how exhausted i am. i'll post more pictures later

anyway i had a blast in Australia. Sasha Singleton is such a sweet and beautiful woman. Jabbawockeez were funny and amazingly talented... and of course everyone that helped us out there were theee best.

Magic... pretty dope... Famous Stars and Straps was the booth Dawn and i were working at... it was a long 3 days considering I was jet lagged but we were lucky to have the whole crew cracking us up at every moment.


anyway... im going through a big change in my life.... uhm... thats all i can say about that... who knows where i'll end up ... no matter what, im sure im going to be ok :)

i'll answer ur guys questions in the comment area... nerv's comp with camera is ready for pick up so maybe i can finally do that video blog :)

super hooptie, i know.. but this is where i would contour my face.. use a matte bronzer... and one thats not that dark, u'll look nuts if u use your regular bronzer
this pic is a prime example of when i used this type of contouring

I got a 6 page layout in the new Ink Junkies Magazine. Shot by none other, Estevan Oriol! :)

go to dawns blog... dawnkirsty.blogspot.com for her version of what we've been up to

anyway...
all i been doing is hanging with my best amiga since she was in town...
now she left. and im a lone again. boo.. its ok

anyway.. i picked up a new craft....
designing nails... i dont want to brag... buti think im really good at it lol.. u guys saw me bedazzle lots of things.. so i picked up 200 press on nails... 10 assorted (pin striping ?!?!) nail polishes,... and TONS, i MEAN TONS of rhinestones.. i've made so many sets already.. but im kind of a french manicure kind of girl.. maybe i'll wear them out.. but for now.. i just like making fancy k-pop looking nails


and anyways... if u noticed i wont answer certain questions... then here, i'll give u some kind of response ... i sit here and take the time to blog and share my life. pictures, work, pets, family and all kinds of tips and secrets--- not a problem.. i enjoy it..
but if u find that i dont want to share every secret of mine, then its time for you to move ON! get over it already. im not obligated in any way to give the world EVERY detail of my life let alone what i already share. im not ashamed of anything i do.... i just chose to pick what things i'd like to reveal.. now please..move along, have a nice night and go do a sudoku puzzle instead.





heres a video of me during my shoot this past week... Michael asked dawn to be a perverted camera man, and she did a good job. lol
by the way.... im kind of embarrassed about the dance sequencei had.. i honestly talking about shabba ranks and how my itty bitty bikini made me think of his dancing ladies on the beach..

I guess summer is ending... but the one thing I love about sunny southern California is that i got about an extra 3 more months of summer. hahah
So my sister Dawn has moved out here. Naturally, she's already has a ticket back to Atlanta for a weekend. I understand though. I remember how it felt like when I first moved. But she WILL be coming back! :) I spend everyday with her.... its so nice to have family around. I know I owe everyone the video.. well.. my desktop computer's webcam sucks.. and Nerv's laptop burned out.. wtf? i dunno... and I dont have a cam on my laptop. I have to wait until nerv's computer gets fixed, but until then... u guys can still send me questions... im more than happy to answer.

SO,..... lets see... i been hanging out with family, still working... and enjoying my days.... not so much clubbing... either way.. here are som visual updates :)

k guys! later

me natalin and maya... you see natalin in this outfit throughout the whole video and Maya as the carwash girl at the beginning at yellow dress dancing at the pool party!

love it, and the song
xoxox

I took Vinny to meet his biological parents this past weekend. I was excited and nervous to how they would react to him... Well, when I first got Vincent, they told me he was a chihuahua-yorkie mix... i knew they were wrong! he looks like a papillion! even his doctors say he's a papillion..

anyway... as im walking to Vinny's mom's apartment.. i see a loud but cute papillion.. and i KNEW that was vinny's dad. looks so much like him... and guess what... it was :)
hahah
vinny's mom is a cute but shy chihuahua... she sniffed him and nervously went back inside her house... vinny just stood there..

then.. he went to meet his dad.
they told me his father was kind of aggressive... so i stayed close by... but he was actually very nice to vinny. but then.. he started humping vinny.... ugh :(
but bambi is in heat.. maybe thats what he smelt on Vincent.

anyways.. i know a lot of people dont really care about this.. but, these dogs are my life... kind of like how kids that were adopted... i let vinny get the chance to meet his biological parents and let him know hes not a yorkie, but a papillion.

it was an interesting day for vinny
and now bambi is growing into a woman dog. lol

hahahahah, ok bye!

i promise i will do my video blog soon.


but, im starting to believe my home is haunted... i'll list out the reasons why

1. nerv's experience... as he was closing our bedroom door (no one there but him) he started feeling a little struggle.. not necessarily a struggle.. but he described it like "if someone one was holding the door"-- thats not the bad part.... he closes the door... and as he walks down the stairs... he hears the door open...

2. my experience.. it was early afternoon and just me and nerv in the house. nerv tells me he's gonna get his car detailed, and im like-- cool, im gonna stay home and do my make up. i had no tv on and no music.. which is rare cuz im usually bumping music loud with my bedroom door always locked.. as im doing my make up... i hear the door jiggle like someone is trying to get in.. my thoughts were "ok... nerv forgot something" so i look at the surveillance camera... and NERV'S CAR WASNT THERE! ...... so i thought..... holy fuck... we're being robbed.. i grab a bat and some pepper spray.... i call nerv and ask if anyone's home other than me.. he says no..
--- i dunno why i decided to be bold... but i went out of my room searching for a robber... as i searched the house... no one was there... i knew what i heard.... so what shook the door knob... hmmm

3. the dogs experience... as i was doing laundry... i see vinny starring at the corner of a wall. i look at him.. and think, ugh he's probably starring at a fly or something... no biggie.. 5-7 minutes pass by without me realizing... vinny is near me but still starring at the EXACT same corner.. i go "hey nerv look at vinny he's tripping out... there's NOTHING THERE"--- vinny looks at us like.. nothing and goes straight back to starring at exact same spot... this goes on about 15 minutes before we start intervening.. he wasnt in a daze or anything... it was like he was watching something...

i dunno man... i feel like things has been creepy lately... hmmm dun dun dunnnnn

http://www.playboy.com/articles/miranda-kerr-justene-jaro-girlwatcher/index.html?page=2

follow the link!!! i'll do the video blog tomorrow! i believe playboy's blogger found me thru MY BLOG! how wild is that? :)

enjoy

yes, i pause a lot. so what

ok, so i was complaining on my twitter how my elf stuff hasn't came in yet... come to find out that delivery came late and its here

this is what i bought

lipliners in shades:
Mauve Luxe
Bark
Spice

hypershine gloss:
Blossom
Vixen

Shimmering Facial Whip:
Pink Lemonade
Golden Peach

All Over Cover Stick:
Permission
Toasted

Under Eye Concealor and Highlighter:
glow/light

Regular and waterproof mascara:
brown (i'm using in on my eyebrows)

Healthy Glow Bronzing Powder:
Matte Bronze
Luminance
Warm Tan

BLush:
Innocence
Flushed

and both styles of black eyeliner.



This is my first time using e.l.f products. i dabbed it on my face while opening it from its packages and so far it seems good. but i'll let you guys know after i try it with a full face of make up on. i just bought 2 pallets, brush set, and a shimmer sampler from coastal scents.. i'll let you know about that too.

i realize im late on buying makeup online, i just get sketchy about make up online :)